Confessions tagged with 'abuse'.




I am a 27 y.o. petite, black female who has been sexually and physically abused through most of my twenties. I guess it stems from the fact that my mom and oldest sister were in odd relationships with guys that beat them up. By odd, I mean the guys they were seeing were much younger than them. My mom was 45 when she was seeing a 20 y.o. white guy who had beaten her up I think 3 times. My sister was 21 when she was fucking a Mexican boy who was only 15. I came home one day to see her naked and him on top of her punching her repeatedly in the face. He got off her when he saw me and ran out of the house but, I could tell he had been beating her for awhile. Her nose and mouth were bloody. She eventually had a black eye and bruises on her body.

My odyssey starts back when I was 18. I met a guy at my job and after a few months of hanging out together, we started officially dating. We dated for just short of 3 years when I found out he cheated on me. Then he left me for this other, older woman. I was incredibly heartbroken. He was my first true bf and I really loved him. At any rate, I went spiraling downward. I started drinking heavily to the point I would blackout, wake up the next day and not remember the night before. I also was talking to a lot of random guys to the tune that I would end up letting them get me drunk and then fuck me. This all came to a head one night that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.

This happened a few months later of still basically "whoring around", I met this Mexican guy when I was working at a convivence store. He asked me for my number a few times and I finally gave it to him. We flirted on the phone a few times then he asked me to hang out with him on a Friday night. I went with him that night and we were really just driving around drinking and smoking some weed. Anyhow, we wound up at a park late and parked. We got out and was walking. He wanted to have sex with me but, I just wasn't to into him so I just said no. I just hung around to drink and smoke. But, he kept trying and then we started arguing about it as we were both high. He tried to hold me and I pushed him off me and then he got really mad and hit me in my mouth and knocked me down. He told me he was going to kick my black ass. He kicked me 2 or 3 times and then he got on top of me, pinned my arms to the ground and proceeded to start beating me up really good. After he was finally done kicking my ass, he got under my dress, pulled down my panties and started fingering my pussy. Then he pulled out his cock, shoved it inside and started fucking me. He hit me some while screwing me. He finished by cuming inside me. After he got off me, he spread my legs and kicked me in my pussy. He got in his car and left me there.

I don't remember how much time passed but, this grungy looking white guy came along. We looked at each other and then I asked if he could help me. I told him I had just got beaten up and raped. He just looked at me and said, nigger, this just ain't your lucky day. He then kicked me in my face and then my ass. After that, he got me on my stomach and then forced himself in and fucked me in my ass. He finished by cumming in my ass. After a few minutes, he got off me. He must have saw what happened to me earlier because he said, nigger, if you think that bean eating spic fucked you up, you ain't seen nothing yet bitch. He picked me up and slammed me to the ground. He stomped my stomach and then kicked me repeatedly in my body. Then he got on top of me and began hitting everywhere on my body and in my face. When he finally finish beating the shit out of me, I think he dragged me behind some bushes and left me there. I say I think because, the next thing I remember was waking up in that park when the sun was coming up. I managed to walk to a local store where the clerk asked what happened to me. I told her and they wanted to call the police but, I just asked them to get me a ride home and I will take care of it from there. My mom and I called the police and told what happened. They did arrest the Mexican kid and he was convicted of battery and rape.

Over the next 2 years, I really thought I had my life in order. I was 24, I stopped dating and went to school and got my AA in education. I then got a job as a tutor with a tutoring service. However, the next 2 years would find me in an abusive relationship.

I got an assignment to tutor a high school 10th grader named Eduardo. He was a 15 y.o. Mexican but, he was not your typical small Mexican boy. He was 6 2, about 185 pounds, very muscular and really good looking. When I saw him, I just said to myself why couldn't he be older. He was on his high school varsity football team. His grades were good already but, his coach didn't want him to become ineligible because he lost track of his school work. He was thought to have a very promising future playing football. He lived with his mother and his little sister who was 13. Anyway, we started our sessions that were twice a week. The first month or so it was a typical tutor/student interaction about the lessons. Little by little, we started having regular conversations. For being so young, he was very charming. To skip a lot of details, even though he was my student and only 15, I found myself attracted to him. He then asked me for my phone number and, against my better judgement, I gave it to him. But I just said he could only call me for education purposes however, we both knew why he asked for it. We started flirting over the phone and then one day after a tutoring session he asked me to go out with him to the movies. He had just turned 16 that week so, I said yes. So we made the date for that Saturday night as he had a football game that Friday night. I came that night to go out with him. I dressed up really nice, a nice white dress, stiletto pumps, nails done, etc. That's how attracted I was to him. When I got there, we were alone as his mom and sister were out. We were in his room and we started talking and then a little flirting and then we kissed for the first time and kept kissing. One thing led to another and we were in bed together and I let him fuck me for the first time. It was the first time I had been fucked since I had been beaten and raped. After he got done fucking me, we went the movies as planned.

Over the next 3 weeks, when I wasn't tutoring him, I would go meet him at his school after his practice and spend a little time with him. We would fuck when we got the chance. As time wore on, Eddie told me that his mom asked him is something going on between us. His mom was an alcoholic but, she paid attention to stuff. She actually texted me to come see her on a day when I wasn't tutoring Eddie and he was at football practice. I went there and sat with her and she was drinking. She asked me if I was dating Eddie. I said of course not but, I could tell she didn't believe me. Then she said "just because I like to drink don't mean I don't know what goes on under my own roof. I don't care if Eddie fucks you even if he is underage. You are pretty and my boy is very handsome so, I can understand why the 2 of you would want to date and fuck each other." She asked me if I knew that he fucks his sister and I was shocked that she knew. I knew he did because we had a 3some one time even though she was only 13. Then she told me she knew about our 3some as well. I was stunned when she told me she knew. She said she didn't mind because as long as he and her daughter were at home, she knew they were safe from harm out on the streets. While she was talking she was holding my hand. She then took me to her room and started explaining to me that Eddie can be very violent. That their family has a history of men beating women. Eddie's dad used to beat her up, his grandfather used beat his grandmother, her 2 brothers, Eddie's uncles, beat up their wives or gfs. Eddie had also beaten up his previous gf.

While this conversation was going on though, she was seducing me. She was feeling on my legs. She was aggressive. She asked me did I want to have sex with her, I just looked at her and she started kissing me and rubbing my pussy. I asked what if Eddie or Letty (that's Eddie's sister) comes in and she responded "either one would probably take off their clothes and join us, especially Eddie." I asked, you would let your own son fuck you? And she said under the circumstances, YES!!!!!!! She then laid me on the bed and went down and ate my pussy until I came. She then went to her drawer and got a strap on dildo and proceeded to get on top and fuck me. After we finished and I was leaving, she reminded me that Eddie can be really violent. That should have told me to get out of this relationship but, I didn't. Soon, I was about to experience the violent side of Eddie.

One Saturday night, we went to one of his teammate's house where he was giving an unsupervised house party. It would be the first time he beat me up. There was underage drinking going on and Eddie was starting to get drunk. It was getting late and I wanted to get him home before he got too drunk. We were outside in the back yard and after a couple of times of asking to go, I told him that if he didn't leave with me now, I was going to leave without him and he could get his own ride home. He like grabbed my arm and said "bitch, you ain't going nowhere" and he slapped the shit out of me. So hard, I fell down to the ground. He got on top of me and started punching me in the face. A couple of guys finally pulled him off me. I got up and started running into the house but, he caught and tackled me to the floor. He started hitting me again. A few girls were saying stop hitting her but, nobody really did anything to stop him. I think everyone there was afraid of him. He then got off me, grabbed me by my hair, said "I'm gonna kick your black, mother fuckin ass" and pulled me into a bedroom, locked the door and he beat the living shit out of me. He slammed me against the wall face first. He threw me into a dresser. On the floor, he kicked me several times. He then got on top of me and hit me over and over and yelling at me. After he was finished, I was a bloody mess. He got a towel and cleaned me up a little, then he made me drive us to his house. His mom saw me and asked what happened and we said some girls at the party jumped me and beat me up. She looked at me and I knew she knew Eddie did this to me.

Every time he beat me up, he always apologized afterwards and said he wouldn't do it again but, like all abusers, he did. I actually was in love with Eddie, even though he was only 16 and I was 25 by this time. That's why I kept going back to him.

He was getting angry more frequently and quicker. One of his teammates told me that he was taking steroids and that was one of the reasons he so was violent. One time, him and his mom were arguing and I guess she told him that me and her had sex that time when she called me to come see her. One night after we went on a date, he beat me up because of that. Saying that I cheated on him with his own mother. One time, I let him and 5 of his teammates fuck me kinda to make up for having sex with his mom. He wanted me to do it again and I refused so, he kicked my ass for that. One other time he wanted me to fuck him and one teammate and I said no but, him AND his teammate beat me up and then fucked me. After about nearly 2 years and about 4 or 5 other beatings I took, I told him I was through with him, and like always, he said he would change. This time though I meant it. So, I guess as his parting gift to me, he really beat the fuck out of me one last time.

I never called the police on him because I didn't want them to find out I was having sex with a minor and I always hoped he would he see how much I really loved him. I haven't seen him in over a year now. He has graduated high school and in college now from what I heard. As crazy as this sounds, I miss him. I know I may sound pathetic but, I can't help how I feel for him. We had a lot of good times together. I don't really hold any resentment to his treatment of me. I just hope he's doing good. He is a really good young man with demons. I hope he doesn't beat up any other girls like he did me.




No one knows this except my step daughter, who is 34 and married with 4 kids, that her oldest child, a son, is mine. I got her pregnant when she was seventeen. I got with her mother way back when she was 5, her sister was 4 and her brother was 2. Me and her mom went on to have a child of our own, a daughter, about 2 years later who, btw, am having a father/daughter with sex benefits relationship now. She is 26 but that's another confession for another time.

I had sex with my step daughter for the first time when she was 13. We seem to have an unspoken attraction for each other. I took her shopping for an outfit for a mock court project she was doing for her 8th grade class. When we got home, it was just me and her. I was sitting out in my van drinking beer when she came out and showed me her two piece pant outfit with a pair of her mother's high heels. She looked great, just like a professional, hot lawyer. I knew then this was my best opportunity to fuck her. I came in the house and went to her room. I told her how good she looked in her new outfit. She just blushed so much. She didn't always have the most confidence in her looks. She was cute and her figure was developing nicely. Even a buddy of mine told me when she was 12 how nice her body was growing, particularly her tits. Anyway, we were sitting on her bed and I started to make my move. I told her I loved her, which I do still, and kissed her forhead, then her nose, then an eskimo nose kiss(rubbing our noses together)then lightly touching her lips with mine. I pulled back to see her reaction and, I saw her smile and blush. I knew then I had the green light. I kissed her delicatily on her lips. Skipping a lot of details, I told her I wanted to take a "special" bath with her. Before she could speak, I said "I'll show you what I mean when you come in." After a couple of minutes, I was in the tub and with the water running and my cock at high noon when she came in. I told her get in. Again, skipping a lot of details, I guided her body and placed her virgin pussy over my dick. I started to bring her down. I got my dick into her entrance and started pushing inward. I told her "I'm going to hit a certain spot in your pussy, it's going to hurt for a little and you may see a little blood but, that will go away soon enough, I promise. It's natural for a girl for her first time for sex." That's why I did it in the tub, along with kissing her, the water will sooth the pain a little and also wash away the blood. After we got through that initial ritual, we got out of the tub and I took her to me and her mom's room. That's where we fucked for real for the first time. I wanted so bad to cum in her pussy but, I knew she could get pregnant so, I pulled out and came on her body. After that I her suck my cock and I ate her pussy as well. I didn't get to fuck her again until she was 15. Her mom and I had gone our separate ways by then. One Saturday, while drinking with my buddies, the 2 of us had been talking on the phone off and on that afternoon. She was at home alone. I asked her did she want me to come be with her and she said yes. Again, not to get into too much detail, she was wearing braces at that time and not feeling good about her appearance. I told her she was still attractive and I would take her out if I were her age. Basically, I was setting her up. A few minutes later we were kissing and I told her to go to her room and change into a button blouse with it open showing her tits, skirt and a pair of her mother's heels. Also with no bra and panties. We were on the couch by the front window. I did that purposefully so she could look out to see if anyone was coming up to the door and we could stop quickly. I had my cock out and told her place her pussy onto my dick. We started fucking. Fucking her was like commiting incest. She was like a daughter to me and knowing that we were in a position that we could get caught made it so fucking hot.

I got to fuck her maybe 2 more times after that until she got to be 18.

I had started frequenting this swingers club that was for 18 and over but, they didn't serve alcohol. I got to know some of the staff and I worked it out where I could bring my step daughter in even though she was only seventeen. Skipping a lot of details, that's where I introduced her to couple swaps, 3somes, gangbangs, DPs and lesbian sex as well. That's when I got her pregnant too. She explained it away to her mother that she met some random guy from out of town and got roped into a one night stand. Didn't know where he was from, blah, blah, blah.

During her pregnancy, we had a few sexual exploites with this white couple we met at the swingers club(we are black). She was 6 months pregnant when we met. We all fucked that night there. He fucked my step daughter, I fucked his wife, the girls fucked each other and then we gangbanged my step daughter. turns out she really likes sex. I DO NOT FUCK MEN. Draw the line there.

This couple swing with 4 or 5 other couples and so one other time we got together at their home and we all just made my step daughter the pregnant cum dump. We just gang fucked the shit out of her, men and women. Although there were a couple of women who were concerned about her condition, meaning we may induce her into early labor, we treated her like she was less than human. We MADE her suck cocks and eat pussy, fucked her pussy, her ass, pulling her head by her hair hard, slapping her face, cumming inside her, on her, in her mouth, the women used strapon dildos to fuck her, men calling her derogotory names, bitch, slut, whore, even nigger. I didn't care in that setting. It was just in the heat of the moment of hard core fucking as far as I was concerned. I never subjected her to that again. I loved her way too much but, it was a fantasy of mine to in a situation like that and it was fun.

After she had the baby, our sexual activity rapidly decreased and then completely stopped She was now a mother and had to tend to her motherly duties. For a long time I wanted to fuck her again but, no opportunity ever really arose and plus she had since gotten with her now husband. Now I have no desre to fuck her. After 3 more kids, she's not very appealing to look at now as she's kinda let her self go, mostly due to being a wife in an unhappy marriage and a mother to four but, I still have those vivid memories of our sexcapades way back when.

As I mentioned earlier I, am now in a father/daughter with benefits relationship with my biological daughter. She does not know about me and her sister but, I may share that with her in pillow talk one night. Who knows, we may get a family threesome!!!!!!!!

(BTW, my son still does not know that I am his father)




This site made me a freak. Im looking through al these filthy pervert confessions and keep thinking about al the dirty kinky taboo things i would like to do. Im married but lately im looking at sex advertising sites to get in contact with a pervert girl who is as depraved as me.

The sex with my wife is good and often but not really the real kinky stuff, so I hope i can find a girl online otherwise im thinking off drugging, raping and abusing my wife.

I also look at teen girls lately due to all the taboo confessions here, never think i would be like that but can not resist the though of abuse a teen girl. Would love to rape her. Fuck her throat until she pukes all over herself, turn her around and pound her ass till it bleeds then fist her pussy till its broken. Leave her behind as the cocksleeve she is. Think i will practice on my wife first…..




(M 18) last night there was a knock on the door around 2 am, so i go and answer it and there was a friend of the family that used to come around a lot. She’s in her late 30’s about 5’2 an has a petite look. Anyways she was asking about my mom and to make a phone call, she is clearly drunk so i let her in and she sits down, well I’m making the call i go and get my dab pen and nic vape because she asked if I had weed or a cigarette, i let her rip on my dabs and vape, after about 15 minutes the pen had died but she asked for more, I didn’t have another charged pen so i let her had a rip off of a nectar collector and gave her a clearly oversized dabs cause i wanted her to pass out we’ll twisted so I could feel her up, so about an hour later she finally passes out and I wait until I know she’s a sleep and start to rub her pussy and nothing happens so i continue and I hear it get wet so i try to get more of my hand on her crotch and I must have hit a sensitive spot because she ended up moving her legs up an now I could get a feel of her pussy so i love to groping her ass, it was bliss, ive been wanting to feel up a pussy or ass for years now. But sadly it started to get into the morning hours and my dad woke up and i could no longer feel her up so I went into the bathroom and jerked off the hardest I have in awhile, well i shot my load onto my hands and the floor i was imagining stuffing my cock into her sleeping mouth and shooting my load




I love phone sex. To make things interesting I like to ask the question "If you could get away with anything without consequences what would you like to do? I was surprised at the number of child related responses. A few of my favorites:

One college girl would like to kidnap 8-11 year old boys and tie them spread eagle, and then circumcise them. She had an elaborate fantasy of playing with a scalpel to terrorize them, telling them what she was going to do. Then getting a cutting board and placing their penis on it. Then, slowly slicing off the tip of their foreskin. She was turned on by all the screaming and jerking around and by the blood. Then she would hang it up on a nail on her wall, to dry and keep it as a souvenir.

Not sure if this was a fantasy: Another girl stated that she turned a 12 year old neighbor boy into her boy toy. She would take him to her all- girl parties and make him perform, doing strips, or feminize him. She would use him as a party game. He would stand across the room and they would take turns bouncing a tennis ball off the floor attempting to hit him in the balls. Whoever succeeded, got to take him privately into a room and have fun with him. She also stated he was taught how to eat pussy, and he ate a lot of it.




I keep having these fantasies about getting fucked by a line of men and all cuming inside of me.

My pussy would be dripping.

I want to be treated like a slut and get abused




My first bf was abusive. He would call me down all the time and it escalated to wear he would hit me and break my things. I also hit him sometimes so it was a toxic relationship but after a year he was so cold and such a psycho prick.

I would leave him for weeks at a time but I felt so empty I would go back. Was almost two years when he finally broke up with me. It was fucked up how he planned it. I still lived at home but I had alot of stuff at his place. He completely planned everything. He took me to dinner and while we were out his friend took all of my stuff and threw it out. Clothes, I had CD's, Mirror, lots other stuff. after dinner we had sex but he raped me anally. He had asked to try anal before and I always said no , it was the one hard no I wouldn't try. I couldnt stop him I just cried and went numb. when he was done he said he wanted to break up and that my stuff was already gone. I laid there a long time felt like absolute piece of shit.

I was in shock for the longest time and took me forever to even date again. It was 100 percent not consensual but its been years now and I still think of him and want him, its fucked up. Sometimes its almost as bad as back then the feeling of wanted to be with him.