i’m 15 in need of a mommy, i’m so desperate, please abuse me and rape me. i’ll be so good for you mommy

Donna became my legal guardian when I was 11 years old. I'm 22 now and she still treats me the same way but worse as I get older. I've been a target of humiliation for as long as I can remember. I stutter and because of that I believe she thinks I'm stupid. She is a very large red haired women who has continued to terrify and embarrass me since I was sent to live with her. From the very beginning I had no privacy since both the bathroom and my bedroom door had no lock. She frequently came in the bathroom as I showered and also while using the toilet. She never hesitated to spank me many times for trivial things I did. At first she only pulled my pants down but by the time I was 12 or so she made me undress spanking me naked. She often made me undress in front of her cousin Clare who is over 50 as Donna is. The ultimate embarrassment came when I was about 15 or 16 when her niece Dawn who is 30ish now saw Donna spanking me naked. I was and still am forced to get an enema 4 times a year and no matter how young I was when it started its even more humiliating now. I am sure Donna does these things to me to intentionally embarrass me. Dawn has never seen me getting an enema but Clare has many times which only makes it worse. My only relief of Donna was when I was in school and now only when I work at the supermarket. I have never had sex although I do masturbate and that also was brought on by Donna with a suggestion by Clare. I think I was about 15 and I did get erections sometimes but never really jerked of enough to cum. It was a Saturday afternoon when Donna was giving me an enema that Clare was watching and suggested that Donna should shave around my anus and also my pubic hair. I have dark chest hair and did have lots of pubic hair at the time. Donna didn't shave me that day of the enema but a few nights later came into the bathroom as I showered, Once out of the shower She sat on the toilet and made me stand there as she first cut my pubic hair with scissors then shaved me in front of Clare. As if that wasn't bad enough she also made me turn and bend over holding my butt cheeks apart and shaved around my anus and all along the crack of my butt. There was only a few more times I ever cried after that night but I still put up with all this humiliation yet today. She would put shave cream on my genitals and actually hold my penis as she shaved my scrotum. It wasn't until many months went by that one night Without thinking about it I got an erection. Again Clare had to be there and I was more embarrassed than aroused. Donna just looked at me as she and Clare laughed. Donna stood up then with the shave cream still on me and basically ordered me to masturbate. I began jerking off in front of them and don't know how I held back tears. I know it took a long time but it was the first time I ever ejaculated. Donna began asking me how often I masturbate and when I denied doing it she only smiled at me. From that night on I masturbate in front of them every week when Donna shaves me and over the last few years they have actually let Dawn be there. Donna doesn't spank me often but when she does I am always made to completely undress and has allowed Clare to spank me many times. Dawn is here sometimes but she has never spanked me. Even though I am not spanked to often it is more severe than when I was young. They not only use a belt but the last few years Danna has began using a hair brush which really hurts. As much as I hate the spankings it is much more humiliating when I get an enema. That's even worse than when she shaves me and makes me jerk off. I do like jerking off when I'm alone but it still embarrasses me when they are watching me and it always take me a long time to cum. At least I don't cry while doing it anymore knowing how they are laughing at me.

During the 90's I was a 17 y/o neighborhood drug dealer. Sadly, most people under 40 were addicted to the product I was selling. I said sadly, because even my own family was addicted. The reason for this post is that at 17. I had sex with all 3 of my sisters and with 2 of my aunts because of their addiction. I am talking about complete sex, ass, pussy,mouth, ass to mouth and everything with all of them. Never at the same time, but on a regular basis especially and always to support And feed their habit. I had sex with them many times over a 3 year period.

In my forties now and I regret I did this to them.

My wife and I have been together for nearly a decade. We have had many sexual triumphs and have tried kinky stuff our whole relationship. Whole masturbating to porn I came across instructional videos of women instructing you how to jerk off and how to eat your own cum by either cumming directly in your mouth and face or licking hands and fingers after cumming. This pretty much changed my life as I started doing everything these instructors said and really, really loved it. My next fantasy was to get my wife to make me eat my cum but didn't really know how to go about it. Eventually I told her to jerk me off onto my face with my legs up over my head just like the videos instructed me to do countless times. She thought it was gross at first but then she did it and it was amazing. Soon after doing this several times She kept aiming my dick at my mouth and would tell me to open wide. The first time I did she made every drop of my juicy load go directly into my mouth as she laughed in a humiliating way. This was so incredibly sexy for me. Now we do this frequently and she talks dirty while she does it saying "You like when I jerk you off on your face" or "you are going to swallow all that I'm for me". I am so lucky to have such a perfect wife.

I have a very lucrative cash business. I'm 37 years old, never married and have a fetish for humiliating women I don't know well. I have two very expensive video devices, one in a small clock the other in a phony cell phone. I set them up to record everything and so far have been able to get 5 women to submit to my fetishes. All five I have met on line and I have paid them as little as $2000 up to $3500, to two young and very attractive girls. Of the other three woman one is 35, semi-attractive, one 41 not cute but a great body and the other 46, a little heavy but more than willing to satisfy me. I have over 60 hours of video so far exposing these women in the most humiliating situations possible, of course without their knowledge. It absolutely astonishes me how these women will submit to my demands just for the money. I pay them for 3 hours of their time each session and the more than 60 hours of video have cost me well over $25,000, and worth every cent to me. I make them strip naked the minute they walk in and before anything else I spank them, forcing them into the most intimate positions for the videos they are making for me. I purchased a fold up massage table and as they lay there I probe every inch of their bodies and bring them to orgasm with various sex toys. Three of them already had no pubic hair but the other two I made them shave it off. If I have intercouse with them I always use a condom but I also have had anal sex with them. By the time the three hours are up they have given me oral sex and masturbated me and I have forced all five to swallow my cum. I also am naked most of the time and frequently have them touch and lick my genitals. Their humiliation is obvious at times but I'm convinced the oldest one enjoys it almost as much as I do. The other women are visabley embarrassed with some of the things I do or have them do to me, but they are well paid. The youngest woman is 22 and she has whimpered many times but still submits to my wishes. I have had her here three times and paid her $3000 once and $3500 the other two times. I don't know much and don't want to know to much about these woman. I do know they need the money but I never ask them questions about their personal lives. I do know that the 41 year old is married but she is the one who told me. I don't know any of their last names and don't even know if they are truthful about their first names. I've been chatting online with a 6th woman who I think is getting more interested in my requests of her. I haven't set a date to meet her yet but am almost sure it will be in the near future. I watch the videos a couple times a week while masturbating and although I do have a girlfriend at present but only see her twice a week. I have been doing this over a period of about 15 months. I can afford it so far but I am not a millionaire. I know I am taking advantage of them because of their finanicial difficulties and realize it is a dispicable thing to do. If they knew they were being videoed I'm sure they would either refuse me or demand more money. I can't imagine any woman subjecting themselves to the ways I see them naked in the most degrading positions I put them in. The dollar works and I know three of them feel shame each time they have been here by the things I demand of them. They are happy with the money I give them and I am happy with my sessions with them.

It started over two years ago and I must admit that I am abused. I'm often violated, treated shamefully, and as much as they have put me through, I am at times totally humiliated. I knew Karen was a tough girl but nevertheless got involved with her. Shes 40 and I'm 31 but sex in the beginneg was good even though she was always the dominate one. She lives with Ellen and for a long time I suspected she was bisexual but know now she isn't. About two years ago I started to realize how kinky she was mainly because she began wanting to shave off my pubic hair all the time. I allowed her to do it and as months went by one night she let Ellen watch her do it and also maturbate me. I didn't know Ellen was at the door watching until after I had cum. It was embarrasing but I started to consider how arousing it was also. When Karen asked if it offended me I uttered, I don't think so. That night opened another world to me with kinky sex and lack of respect for me. I tolarate it now for my own gratification but suffer also to satisfy Karen and Ellen. The good part of it is that both of them masturbate and give me oral sex. I never have intercouse with Ellen but do perform oral sex on her often. I came to realize they enjoy tormenting me by not just humiliating me but started what could be conscrewed as torture. It began when they started tying me up at first only shaving my body hair and never listening to any complaints I had or objected to. Ellen was the first to insert a dildo in my rectum and gradually things got more intense. I still have sex with Karen alone a few times a week but since it all started at least once and often twice a week I am treated as a submissive, which I truly have become. After only about six month into this, Karen and Ellen have been taking me down to their basement and tying me to a large oak table. They also have what appears to be a saw horse only it has carpet tacked over the top and legs. When they tie me to that I'm draped over it with my arms and legs tied down and I am always naked. Without asking me if I had any objection, they not only began spanking me but also adorned a stap on dildo. Once I was securely tied down they took turns as one would play with my genitals as the other began fucking me in the ass. They just continued no matter what I said and once the pain of it subsided they would give me oral sex and often let me cum in their mouth. They just told me they like taking advantage of me and the fact is I am always satisfied when they are done with me. They do make me give them oral sex all the time and often sit on my face when I am tied to the table. Sometimes when on the table they tie my legs bent up and open and both either suck my dick or masturbate me when they insert a vibrator into my rectum. As bad as it may sound I do like the vibrator but still don't like it when they screw me with the strap on dildo. One night almost 11 months ago they had me tied over the saw horse. Ellen was wearing the strap on and began penitrating me as Karen was playing with my penis and scrotum. She did put ky or vasaline on it but it did hurt at first. Then I heard Karen say "come on down" and as I glanced towards the step saw two pairs of shoes and ankles only. I knew they were girls but had no idea who they were. All I knew was that they were behind me watching Ellen fuck me with the strap on. I couldn't believe Karen would let this happen and was so ashamed and humilited I started to shake but couldn't move. Ellen was more aggressive with the strap on and was penitrating me so deep I began begging her to stop and all I could hear is them laughing and joking around. My penis even went a little limp but then Karen began masturbating me until I finally did cum. The two girls were in front of me but I still couldn't see who they were and could only see up to about their waiste line. Ellen pulled the dildo out of me after I ejaculated and they let me stay that way and took turns spanking me, again in front of the two other girls. I was laying over the saw hourse for almost an hour by that time and was getting dizzy from it. I must have sounded like a idiot and kept asking them to untie me. Before they did the two strange girls went back up the stairs and left. I felt disgraced and was embarrased. I told Karen I wouldn't let them do this anymore. I showered as I usually do and when I came back down stairs I just told Karen and Ellen they should have asked me first if I wanted those girls to see me like that. I asked who they were and Ellen only told me she works with them at the bakery but never mentioned names. They both apoligized but said they thought I would like those girls to see me naked and assured me I didn't know them. Over the next week Karen kept calling me, asking if I was mad at her and Ellen. I said I was but began to realize deep down it was arousing to me that those girls saw me so exposed. The next time I spoke to Karen she got me to admit it but I did tell her that Ellen put the strap on diddo in me to deep and it hurt badly. I had sex with Karen at my apartment on Tuesday and she told me to go to her house Friday night. Ellen promised not to push the dildo all the way in me and I once again let them tie me down. They had my legs bent and tied and wide open. First they shaved me and after Ellen dried me off Karen started putting a blind fold over my eyes and said the girls are up stairs. I think because I couldn't see a thing, I was more at ease but became nervous and humilited as soon as I heard them coming down the steps. This time they all talked and the first thing Karen did was to play with my testicals and penis until I got hard. Then I think it was Ellen who turned the vibrator on but at first only touched my balls and penis with it for a long time. I could feel her put the vasaline on my anus and she began inserting it in me. I'm not sure who was doing what but the stimulation was so great I no longer felt embarrassed or felt like they were degrading me. I actually wanted to see who these other girls were. Ellen refused to take the blindfold off of me. Karen kept asking me if I was going to cum and she would stop jerking me off for a short time but Ellen kept moving the vibrator in and out of me. Ellen let me cum after awhile and before they untied me the girls I don't know left. It excited me because I didn't know and still don't know if any of them touch me or spank me. I don't even know if Karen and Ellen ever let them penitrate me either with the dildo or vibrator. When I ask about it they never tell if these girls do anything to me. This has gone on since, two or three times a month. I keep asking who these girls are that come and watch me and perhaps participate, but Karen and Ellen won't tell me. Two weeks ago Ellen finally did tell me its not the same girls all the time and that there are nine that have watched what they do to me. I know when one or two of these other girls are coming over because Karen and Ellen never get undressed when they do and never give me oral sex either. They only shave me, masturbate me and use the dildo and vibrator on me. If they have me on the table I am always blindfolded when the other girls come down the basement. When they tie me over the saw horse I can see but can't bend my head up enough to see who they are. I can tell 3 of them are fat girls just by the size of their ankles. They do talk when here but I don't recognize any of their voices and Karen and Ellen have promised me they are girls I don't know. I have asked about their ages but all Karen and Ellen tell me is most in their 30's and 40's, two 20's and one 50's. When all that is going on I am no longer humiliated by it. The crazy thing is when I think about it at work or when alone, I am horrified and feel shame for submitting to it. I can't imagine what these women think of me and must asume I am a complete pervert. I know Karen knows a few of them but I think most of them work with Ellen. Its a large name brand baking company that has hundreds of employees. I know I am a submissive asshole but it gets me so aroused I keep letting them do it.