when i was 5 i was molested by my older ex-step sister. that's how it started. my mom married this really shitty guy who had five kids and a crazy stupid ex wife. she was so stupid she let her 14 year old son raise the little girl. I'm pretty sure her brother was molesting her because he used to kiss her on the lips and control everything she did right down to the last bite of food she ate. I always thought it was weird an asked her about it but she didn't really get into it.

the first time i met her she was really cool, her and i got along pretty well along with my older sister who was 7. it was like a perfect little family cause she was right in between our ages. one day she coaxed my sister and i to go into my closet and she asked if we knew what sex was. both of us didnt. so she pulled down her pants and made me pull down mine and licked my pussy. just for a little but enough for me to feel her tongue slide between my lower lips and then she pulled away and made me do it to her. then my sister wanted it as well. i was under the impression that they would do it more to me and still had my pants down, but they didn't and they ended up getting their climax and leaving me hanging.

i was the youngest and such a sweet kid i never protested for a few months but it was building up inside of me. after she'd taught me and my sister to do that, big sis wanted it all the time and would always start me off with a small lick and then tell me to return the favor and she'd make me give her head for a couple minutes until she came. after her post not clarity she'd tell me "i'll get you next time" but she never did. the step sister would come over often and then sometimes i'd go over her house. it was really hard for us to have alone time because the brother was always watching. so we'd wait till we could hear him snoring and then begin licking each other's pussies. she was a bitch too who in the beginning wouldn't let me finish until i decided she could get on top of me and then we'd do 69. we'd get up so tired the next day because we knew we'd spent all night doing 69 instead of going to sleep like we said. It would be just us two on the floor with the bedroom door open in the dead of the night, her on top of me with her pussy in my face while hers was on mine. I always had to do a little extra work to get off because she put in minimal effort, i noticed soon after that if i was on top i had more control to have my orgasm and still give her hers because i genuinely enjoyed licking her pussy. she made me enjoy it. she tasted so much better than my real sister who's was salty and bitter.

i took those skills back home and used them with my sister when my step sister wasn't around. one day my mother caught us in the middle of 69 and grabbed the belt and beat us. she went ballistic asking us where we learned it. we told her the truth and i could hear my step cousin on the phone just sobbing as her brother was beating her up for teaching us sex. i felt so bad for her. i was so scared and i knew we'd never be able to do the things we were doing again. I still missed the feeling so much though. the hiatus didn't last long.

I had another older cousin, biological and she was 12 and she unfortunately was being raped by her moms boyfriend. so she was horny as well and one day she asked us if we knew what sex was. my sister jumped at the chance to say yea she knows what sex. so my cousin pulled her pants down and spread her ass cheeks apart and told us to lick it. my sister sucked at it, just giving the tip of the tongue but i dived in. munching at her asshole spread open and then dipping down and licking her pussy. i don't know why i enjoyed it so much i guess i was just a really messed up kid. but i really looked up to my cousin and wanted to make her proud so i ate her asshole and her pussy for as long as i could stand. she complimented me and said i'm really good at it. my sister wanted some of the praise and joined in too but her tongue wasn't as far up her ass as mine was. i could probably taste what she ate that day. eventually my sister was excited and wanted me to lick her too. so they both laid down on their backs while i took turns eating them out. no one ever returned the favor and left me dripping wet most of the time. sometimes i'd get eaten out for a little bit and they would get annoyed and tell me to finish them off.

i loved eating my step sister and cousin out but not my sister. it was just the only time she was nice to me and would actually give me attention and adoration. one day when i was licking my cousin and sisters pussy i was so horny and we had only a limited amount of time. i made them both cum and then they got up and got dressed cause her mom came home. i walked outside with my pants down and said 'wait guys please do me' and her mom saw me and went crazy. beating all of us with a belt and calling my mom. they looked at me so pissed because i blew the whole cover but i'd rather take a beating and get them all fucked up than let them leave me hanging again. so fuck it we all got in trouble.

but i'd started noticing something about their dog. she had a fixation on licking, she'd lick my arm for over 30 minutes and i wondered what she would do to my pussy. so i started taking her into the bathroom with me every time and letting her lick my pussy and make me cum. she used to lick me so good and i'd finally be able to relieve that built up tension that they caused from lining me up like a slave to eat them out. they suspected it cause i was a dumbass kid and was so obvious. one day we went over to her house again and id sucked on my cousins asshole for so long, making it went and spit dripping down between her pussy lips. her moms boyfriend had to have been listening in on what we were doing and just feeding off of what he created. because of all of the abuse, part of me now wishes he'd joined in and started licking me too because i needed to be touched. these older kids had completely ruined me and i was no longer a regular kid. anyways, i'd just gotten done eating her out and she went downstairs to watch a movie. i went into her bedroom and let the dog lick my pussy non stop. the movie was so loud and i was about to cum so i didn't hear my aunt come home and immediately come to the room i was in. she busted the door open and i freaked out again and tried to hide. i was caught. why is it always me caught in the middle of the weird freaky mess? who fucking knows. my aunt ran and screamed to her daughter that i was letting the dog eat me out and everyone in the house knew. i was so fucking embarrassed. my secret was out and i couldn't hide it anymore. everyone called me a dog fucker. all the kids in our immediately family would pick on me and my sister held it over my head for years while she still forced me to lick her pussy.

i hate all of them. i'll never be the same and i'll always fantasized about older men licking my pussy instead of my cousin and dogs licking my pussy. i fantasize about my aunts boyfriend taking a liking to me instead of her and laying me down face down ass up while he fingered a little bit of peanut butter in my asshole and let the dog eat it out until i was dripping wet. then he could play with my little pussy a bit, stretch it out and get it ready before he stuck his dick in. he could have been fucking me every single time i came over and i would have kept it a secret. i bet he'd make me satisfied after all that fucking. i guess i was too young for him but i always thought he was sexy. he slapped my ass once and then squeezed it and i smiled and blushed. i think i gave him the okay that he could fuck me but it never happened. maybe my mom was too much of a control freak and it scared him off. no one in the family likes to talk about it and i'm glad they've all "forgotten" but i really know they haven't. i have never spoken about this to anyone i know in real life and i never will. i want therapy but i'm far too embarrassed to talk about it. thanks for reading now maybe i can live with it