I read stories and see things on tv about people being abused. Sometimes child abuse, spouse abuse or just a teacher or adult abusing a kid. Scandals about religious figures abusing people in their churches or other stories of pedophiles. My situation is more of letting myself be abused out of fear and a long drawn out manipulation by a two women who are not even blood relatives. My mother died of a drug overdose when I was 5 and somehow Helen and Brenda became my legal guardians with the approval of my grandmother. We live in a semi-rural area and are only 4 miles from town where I went to school. Helen and Brenda are not related to each other but own a small business together. Many people think they are gay but both have dated men many times over the years. The abuse of me began without me ever realizing it. I was born with a clubbed foot but am able to walk without any assistance. I'll be 20 next April and although I know how they take advantage of me it has become a sexual turn on for me. They have known this for a long time and continue to use me and treat me like a servant. As far back as I can remember is when they began spanking me but it was Brenda who always forced me to undress first. I was never permitted to lock either my bedroom or the bathroom door and many times during a week was denied being able to wear clothes. I saw them naked often but forced to be naked around them for hours and many times for a full day always saying it was punishment. It seemed like everytime one of them spanked me they also would make me stay naked the rest of the day or evening. I was naked so often as a youngster in front of them I don't remember if I was ever embarrassed by it since I was so young when it started. Some of the beatings I received were cruel and Brenda was the one who always made me plead for forgiveness. Helen was the one to make up my chore list and when she spanked me often smacked or took hold of my penis or squeezed my scrotum just to inflick more pain. I was petrified of both of them and to a degree still am today. As I reached puberty nothing changed, the whippings continued and my genitals were abused by them. They use their hands but also use one of Helen's skinny, red leather belts. I was always in to much pain to react sexually with the things they did to me. I was 13 the first time they saw me with an erection. I don't know what I did but Brenda made me undress and bend over to spank me. By this time I didn't cry very often unless they beat me badly. She smacked my penis a few times with the belt and all the sudden I was hard. I was standing naked in front of them which didn't embarrass me at all but the fact that I did have a hard on was humiliating for me, why I don't know. Helen and Brenda first critized me, then Helen asked me if I masturbated. I said no at first but after what became an interiagation, I admitted that I did. That day was the first time they made me masturbate in front of them. I still saw them naked once in awhile but they never were when I was and never when they beat me or made me jerk off. Helen is built well compared to Brenda, who is very tall and heavy. Both are in their late 40's now and Helen will be 50 in November. They began giving me an option of either getting a spanking or going without clothes for that day or for a few hours. It was always because of something I did which is most of the time made up by them or something as stupid as not doing the dishes the right way. Even though they both date men I know they have sex together, most of the time in Helens room when I can hear them. Since my early teen years they continued now to spank me and force me to masturbate afterwards. By the time I was 16 is when they began doing things to humiliate me at first making me shave off pubic hair. After only a few times Brenda began doing it and it was impossible for me not to get an erection. Every time I get an erection and everytime they make me masturbate and sometimes spank me afterwards for doing it. I have never told anyone about this and for the last 4 or 5 years have began to enjoy it. Helen and Brenda have had me admit to it many times and I now welcome the abuse they inflick on me. Two or three times a week I am ordered to get undressed and I willingly comply. They never tell me so but I know they like seeing me naked. I'm 5'6' and built fairly well but my penis is only a normal size. I know they like spanking me and even though sometimes they over do it I never complain about it fearing they will hurt me worse. Brenda still makes me plead leniency and forgiveness but still sometimes hits me so hard I still cry from the pain, but not as often as when I was younger. A year or so ago was the first time they abuse my rectum when Helen was shaving me. She always shaves my pubic hair completely, even shaving the hair around and near my anus. Although she and Brenda had often touched my anus, Helen forced a dildo in me which I didn't and don't like, but still put up with her doing that to me. I have never had sex with a girl and don't have to many friends I can even confide in. Helen and Brenda do touch my penis and testicals all the time when they spank or shave me, but they never masturbate me. They always make me jerk off myself, sometimes making me lay down or bend over as I do just to try and humiliate me. This I don't mind them doing and am no longer intimadated by anything they do or make me do. They often come in the bathroom as I shower and for some strange reason like to watch me pee. Years ago it bothered me when they watched but no longer does it now. The main fear I have of them now is how hard they will spank me, especially with the red belt. They don't treat me much better than they did many years ago and still order me around like a little kid. They are abusing and taking advantage of me but it became arousing to me a long time ago. They don't go out of their way to have me see them naked but neither one of them ever tries to cover up. Brenda will go through the hall naked and sometimes her door will be open when I see her. Helen has her bedroom door open a lot and I do see her naked more often and sometimes she talks to me when she is naked in the hallway. When ever they make me undress to spank me or make me go around naked they are always dressed or at least in night clothes. As much as it has turned into a sexual thing for me I'm not sure what kind of amusement or satisfaction they get from doing all these things to me. I know they have no desire to have sex with me but obviously like seeing me naked and punishing me. Even though they touch my genitals they have never masturbated me which I would like for them to do. I think they are under the impression that I am embarrassed or humiliated with the way they treat me and I think they are convinced I am sometimes. The only things I still dislike is when one of them spanks me to hard and I never like it when they insert the dildo in my rectum. Helen likes doing that to me more so than Brenda and I'm sure by now she does it knowing full well how I hate it. It don't really hurt that much but I just don't like how it feels, especially when she keeps pulling it in and out of me. She keeps asking me how it feels and telling me I don't like it and knows I don't. Helen dates a guy on a regular basis but I know for sure that she and Brenda have sex a couple times a week. I only work at their store two or three days a week but I clean the whole house and do all the laundry every week. They are good to me if I need money or clothes but many times they tell me I am not allowed out. Six months ago I wanted to go to a movie one night and Brenda said I had to stay home. I went anyway and when I got home the two of them made me strip naked and beat me with the red belt until I was in tears. I'm 19 but they still control me and now I always ask if I can go out. I think about it and know how they dictate almost everything I do but so far just go along with everything. I know I must sound like a complete idiot but I don't have anywhere to go and no job experience. I don't know what I want to do or want to be someday and just let Helen and Brenda continue to dominate my life. I have two friends I see often and both have met Helen and Brenda a few times. They think Helen is my mother and I just let them believe that. My friends know I'm not allowed out sometimes but have no knowlege of what goes on or how Helen and Brenda treat me. I could never tell them everything and now make up excuses instead of admitting I am not allowed out.