I'm a 30 year old father of four, been married for 6 years to my best friend. We started out relationship on Christian values and have been struggling off and on since we've been married with sexual sin and lust. We both have a problem with wanting to share/lust for other people. This fantasy has progressed beyond the talking point to her actually spending time with another man. She works with the guy who is single and a couple years older than her, she's very attracted to him and says its just the lust of a new fling... there isn't anything more to it. Last Monday she asked to hang out with him which turned into her spending a good four hours at his house, making out with him on his bed, in the hallway, and on his couch. She said she was sucking on his finger when he told her he was going to cum... she said she told him it was ok as he pulled his penis out. She said she touched it, licked the tip, and up his shaft while he stroked himself to an orgasm. She wrote me the following day describing how awesome it was even though she didn't get off.

Jump to yesterday, she stayed over at his house to watch a late movie and ended up sleeping with him in his bed. She said they were both too tired and didn't do anything but sleep.

She never came home, but went back to work this afternoon after leaving his house. I got to see her at work today, she said he invited her out with some friends tonight for drinks after work and she was planning on going, for me to expect that she'll end up back at his house tonight. She said they didn't do anything sexual because they were exhausted from work, but I got the impression that she's expecting something to happen.

Im pretty confident she's not going to have full on sex with him yet, she said last night she wasn't going all the way down that road with him, and she didnt take any of our condoms with her when she packed her night bag.

What have I gotten myself into... my Christian wife is having an affair with another guy and I'm seemingly okay with it, wanting her to share all the intimate details of what they do together. I know this is weird, even more so that I spent last night alone while she was with him, and now it looks like I'll be alone tonight while she's out with him and will most likely end up back in his bed.

She didn't and doesn't have any issue with what she's doing at the moment... she told me she doesn't want to stop and said its going to take time for her to be able to.