This all stared when I was around 8. I would cross my legs and I would feel relived. This went on until I was 13. Thats when I discovered porn. I would watch while crossing my legs. I'm 16 now and I have tried quilting but I can't. I have never fingered myself because I'm scared. I have fantasies about doing the deed regularly. And I have all sorts of fantasies. From rape to incest to group sex and even lesbian ones. I have fantasies about doing it with cousins (18m and 17m). I have fantasies about my female friends. I just want to do it but I'm too scared. I haven't even gotten my first kiss yet. What should I do?