I was really stupid when I was 14. Met a guy in his 20's online, thought I was grown up, he loved me, etc. I was at his place one day when he started feeling me up. Tried to tell him no, he didnt care, ended up ripping at my clothes and holding me down while fucked me from behind.

It hurt. I cried and tried to scream but he covered my mouth and I gave up fighting quick. He came inside me. Called me a slut, that if people knew thats all Id be, that my mom would hate me blah blah blah. Im lucky I didnt get pregnant. No visible marks. Hated myself.

Now I masturbate to it constantly. Nothing gets me wetter than the thought of someone taking my holes. I try all the time to be as vulnerable as possible. I need it. Its all im good for. Rape a baby into me.