When I was about eight or nine years old I made my cousin who is seven suck my dick I had just discovered porn through my fathers collection. One time shortly after I was at my cousins house for vacation and I would always sleep in the same room as my cousin. I was turned on to the. Things I saw in porn. So that night I asked her to pretend to go to the bathroom while I was watching. She was younger so she listened to me very easily. I started getting really horny when she did that so later that night when we were in the same room bed I was getting more curious and I showed my dick. It felt wrong but it felt so good at the same time and I was too young to really know the difference. She naturally just grabbed it awkwardly and squeezed gently. At one point I had her show me her pussy. I really didn’t know what I was doing but I wanted to mimic what I saw in the porn so at one point I told her to put it in her mouth. She was slightly hesitant but ultimately listen to me. She was really just licking my dick for a little. After I felt horrible and realize I shouldn’t have done that. As I got older and more mature it haunted me and I hoped she never remembered.

Now she’s in her early 20s we don’t speak because she started actually becoming sexually active and realized what transpired when we were little. I sometimes fantasize about it it’s still turn me on but it is a part of my past that I am very ashamed of