There are nine boys who live nearby that see me naked every weekend. I own a small cabin upstate and go there every Friday after work. Some weekends I bring a friend but most of the time I am alone. Its been going on well over a year now. It started with one boy, and if I remember correctly it was in March of 2011. I didn't realize he was looking into my bathroom and am sure he watched me shower and dry myself. There is a large bush close to the cabin and I think he inavertantly ran into it. When I did look out he was running into the woods towards the main road. I was only devorced a few months at the time and admit the fact he saw me naked was arousing to me. It was two weekends after that and it had just gotten dark out when I saw two boys walking towards my cabin from the woods. One was the boy who was peeking into my window that first time. My cabin is fairly secluded and even the breif time I was married had little fear of privacy. The cabin only has one floor and I saw them from the kitchen window as they went around the bush near the bathroom. I had never done anything like this before and think now I was nervous about it but at the same time aroused by the prospect of them seeing me naked. I new my bathroom window was open slightly and I went in and began to get undressed knowing they were there. By the time I was only in my bra and panties I did have second thought about it but became excited and aroused again. When I was finally naked I felt myself get wet and took a very long shower and afterwards drying myself slowly and using the hair dryer while still naked. The next night the same two boys came again and I did the same. I began leaving my bedroom window open enough for them to look in and would be naked for an hour or more each time they were outside. After this going on most weekends I think it was probably about two months when I began masturbating knowing they were watching. I also began shaving off all my pubic hair, when for years I only trimmed it. I would say within 3 or 4 months other boys began coming and always with the original boy. So far I am sure there are nine that come often and perhaps a tenth boy who i have only seen twice. They always come about 8 pm and the only time I dissapoint them is when I have a guest for the weekend, which is seldom. I have recognied four of them when I go into town. One of the boys mother works in the diner I go to but when I see him I avoid eye contact with him. I have dated a few men over the past year or so but can't discribe the feeling I get when those boys are seeing me naked. As I know they are watching me masturbate I have have more orgasms than when I am having sex. I do use a vibrator all the time but just knowing they are watching gets me so hot I can't explain it. I do masturbate in the shower sometimes but 90% of the time I am in my bed wich is only a few feet away from the window. I think about it all the time and masturbate often with thoughts of getting away for the weekend again. I'm 33 years old but am sure these boys are thrilled to watch me. I make sure I get to the cabin before dark and sit at the window looking for them and they always show up. A few times we had bad storms when they didn't come but many times they did while it was raining. There are only two that I see often in town but I now recognise all of them. I do hear them sometimes and for that reason I always have music or the tv on rather loud to not scare them away. I can't explain why this is so exciting to me but I get goose bumps thinking about them watching me.

Drug addict? Yes I am, but over the last year I became able to control how much I use. Oddly, the reason for it is my compulsion to exhibitionism. I live alone and my small house became a hang out for 6 neighborhood girls. Mixed races, two under 18 at the time and for some reason they all seemed to like me. I admit giving them weed to smoke sometimes but my drug use was so out of control I made a fool of myself. I was 32 when it began and the oldest girl was only 21. The only time I was sober was once a week when I collect my profits from two small businesses I own. I make a fairly good living from them and know I could make more if I took more interest in them. Instead, I let 2 managers run them knowing they are skimming the profits somewhat. Anyhow, all these girls have family problems and I guess they felt comfortable hanging out at my house. It wasn't that I was having sex with any of them but I was so strung out most of them time it was common for them to see me naked. Now I'm not bragging or anything but I know I am a good looking guy. I'm not especially well hung but do have an average size penis. There are many times I can't remember things but know I jerked off in front of these girls many times. I never asked any of them to masturbate me but last year Janell did. The thing is, I was so buzzed at the time I didn't know she did until she told me the next day. That is sad and at the time my drug use began shortly after I woke up it day and only escalated. By late afternoon I would begin drinking, smoking weed and crack most of the time. Sometimes the girls were here and I didn't even knoe they were. Evette and Dana both had keys and they pretty much came and went as they pleased. Often one or two of them would stay overnight but I had never had sex with any of them. Once I was high without thinking about it I always took of my clothes. I was never sober enough to be embarrassed about being naked in front of them. Gail is the only girl that is actually pretty and built nice. Out of the other five two are very skinny and the other three heavy. I did a few years ago have a long relationship with a real nice girl but she dumped me because of my drug use. That is the last time I have real sex with a woman and from then on have only been masturbating. After I found out Janell jerked me off I began to realize how bad the drugs and drinking were affecting me. So I began to slow down with them not entirely giving them up. Thats when I began appreciating the fact that I could expose myself to these girls whenever I wanted. With less drugs I was aroused more often and even the girls would comment that I had more erections around them. Janell is one of the heavy girls, not very good looking but was more than willing to masturbate me even in front of the other girls. Over this year all six have jerked me off and about 7 months ago Evette asked if she could shave off my pubic hair and I have been bald down there ever since. Evette became the most aggressive of them and for the last five or six months they all have became that way. I suppose they only think of me as a drug addict and have began taking advantage of me. What they try to do is to humiliate me but I willingly allow them to do it. I never have any clothes on when they are here, sometimes only a few and often all 6 are here. They shave my pubic hair every week sometimes twice and have used a vibrator inserting it into my rectum. I think they enjoy making a fool of me and think I am still wacked out on drugs all the time. What they don't seem to realize is how much I enjoy it. What they feel or think of me is of no concern. I have never had sex with any of them and have never even seen any of them naked. The turn on for me is to have them see me naked and I truly appreciate how they are so willing to masturbate me.

This is something few people know about even though I live in a very small town in up state NY. I'm a 42 year old female who has been terrorizing and demoralizing a young guy since he dropped out of high school. His name is Byron, his mother is white and the town drunk. His father is black and no one has seen him in more than ten years. I never liked Byron and always dispised his mother and father. Byron will be 20 next October but I have succeeded in having full control and obedience from him. He is so afraid of me I have complete domination of him and have totally broken him down. He was a little skinny, foul mouth punk and yet when his mother threw him out of her house I let him move in with me and my friend Connie. He had no job and quit school a few weeks before that. I set a list of rules for him and started by having him do yard work and painting. He knew I didn't like him and he knew my reputation as being a tough and arrogant woman. This I have to explain since my up bringing wasn't good. I was molested and abused as a small girl and had relationships with some men I don't care to think about. I'm a big woman and always felt used by the men I had relationships with. I don't think of myself as a lesbian but as a bisexual. Connie and I have been lovers for 6 years and she moved in with me 5 years ago. When Byron moved in both Connie and I read him the riot act and I informed him he would do as he is told and if not he would be punished. I belittled him and ridiculed him, telling him he was a shrimp and that I considered him trash. I informed him I was nothing like his parents and that I was big enough to spank him if he got out of line. That first day I even smacked his face just to show him who was the boss. It took less than a month the first time I actually did spank him and he wimpered like a small child. What caught my attention most was when I made him take off his underware in front of Connie. Tears rolled down his face even before I began spanking him. He is light skinned even though his father was black and has a small penis. I could see the humiliation in his eyes and rather than feel sorry for him it gave me a sense of power and domination which I have never had over a male before. I shamefully admit that I enjoy the aspect of humiliating males. I started taking more advantage of Byron more frequently as time passed and Connie also enjoys humiliating him as often as possible. After the first spanking it occurred to me that Byron was actually shy. He was so embarrassed that Connie and I saw his penis and that I made him lay half naked over my lap he wanted to cry. The second time I made him take all of his clothes off and and let Connie spank him naked. Afterwards I made him stay naked for hours dustiung furniture and mopping the kitchen floor that way. He had a frown on his face and tears in his eyes the entire time. From then on he is naked for every spanking he gets. Its probably over a year now that at least once a week I make him do chores around the house completely naked. He calls us Miss Nel and Miss Connie all the time and when I tell him to get his clothes off he always says "please no". Either me or Connie spank him every week and sonmetimes more than that. The fact that we make him go around naked bothers him more than the spankings and thats why I do it. There are certain friends of mine and Connie who we often let them see Byron naked. Julie and Dawn seemed to like it the most. I have them over more often than some other friends and will call Byron into the living room and make him strip down in front of all four of us. He has cried a few times but still obeys me when I tell himm to undress. What makes it worse for him is when he is naked I make him wax the furniture and vacuum the carpet while the other girls are watching him. He has become like a puppet and does whatever Connie or I tell him to do. Its also been over a year since we began making him masturbate in front of us. It started when one night Connie walked into his room and caught him jerking off. At least one night a week we make him strip and masturbate in the living room. Once he is naked we make him put newspaper on the floor and more often than not have one or more of our friends over to watch also. Connie tells him it punishment for his dirty mind. I don't think his erection is any more than about 5 inches at the most and know he is completely humiliated when we make him do this. As he strokes himself he also has tears in his eyes and never looks at any of us. Connie is the one who makes him move around and always makes him turn and bend over. She makes him speard his cheeks apart when doing this forcing him to expose his anus and a back view of his scrotum and penis. She does this just to embarrass him more and I can't imagine what he is thinking when Connie makes him do that. He knows he has to cum on the newspapers and afterwards has to roll them up and put them in the trash. To make matters more degrading we make him thank us for watching him and telling us what a bad boy he is. Dawn enjoys mocking him also whereas most of the other girls don't say much to him. Dawn likes asking him embarrassing questions often telling him how small his penis is and asking how often he masturbates and if he has a girlfriend, which he does not. He is still a shrimp but no longer a foul mouth brat and is truly afraid of Connie and I.

Renee is 7 years older than me and the only reason I kept dating her was for the great sex. Then three years ago she somehow talked me into letting her and her three kids move in with me. It was mostly because of her financial difficulties. Jerry is the oldest and Laureen and Jeanie are still in high school. My house has 3 bedrooms but I bought it (as is) 5 years ago. It had extensive damage on the second floor from a fire but the price was a 3rd of market value at the time. I explained to Renee at the time that the upstairs was still a mess. It was gutted by the privious owners and although I did a lot of repairs there were no doors on the bedrooms. The framing was not even done but only the drywall work and none were even painted. The bathroom was the biggest problem since there are two doorways, one in the hallway the other in the master bedroom. I had spent so much money on this house and was still in the process of finishing the kitchen and putting on a new roof. I just couldn't afford to finish off the upstairs and it still remains that way now. Sheets were tacked up over the doorways when they moved in but right from the beginning there was very little privacy. It was awkward at first because we all saw each other either naked or semi naked on a daily basis. The girls would come into my room when either Renee or I were naked or in bed. Within the first month Jerry walked in one time when Renee and I were having sex. Renee just laughed it off so to speak and over a short period of time it became a common occurance for Jerry or the girls to see us naked. It was almost like a mini nudest colony. The bathroom was complete as far as the plumbing was concered but it was like grand central station. The girls thought nothing of walking in while either myself or Jerry were in the shower and would even sit and urinate. The shower has a glass enclouser so we can actually see each other. They even did this with Renee and she never complained or tried to do anything about it. It didn't matter the gender because even Jerry would come in when I was in the shower and even if his mother or sisters were showering. I don't know how they lived before they moved in with me but it seemed they were accustomed to seeing each other like that and now seeing me. I think it embarrassed me the first few times but I soon became just like them. I didn't care if they saw me naked and I liked seeing Laureen and Jeanie naked. I always get home from work around 3:30 but Renee don't get home until 6 pm. I always shower when I get home and Laureen seems to be the one who always comes into the bathroom while I shower. She sometimes comes in to pee but a few times a week she comes in and either sits on the toilet seat or just stands there talking to me or asking me dumb questions. Jeanie does it often but Laureen is relentless and it is obvious how she stares at my penis. Just the way she looks at me causes me to become aroused and I used to try to turn away so she wouldn't see me getting hard. After many months I stopped trying to hide my erections from her and now just keep showering. Same with Jeanie but Laureen stays in the bathroom most of the time even watching me dry off. I do the same to them sometimes but I never do when Renee is home. I also watch them from my room and just push the sheet aside enough to see into the shower. I have watched Laureen masturbate many times but have never seen Jeanie doing it in the shower. If she does masturbate she must always do it in her room. They saw Jerry naked as much as they have seen me but Jerry joined the Navy last year and went away last April. Renee and I both sleep naked and for that reason alone I know Renee is aware her daughters see me naked often. What Renee doesn't know is how often they come into the bathroom when I shower. Its Laureen more so than Jeanie but both have stood in the hallway pushing the sheet over and looking in at me. I almost always get an erection whether they are in the room or watching me from the hallway. I jerk off more than I'm willing to admit knowing one or both are watching me. I never masturbate when they are in the bathroom because I don't want them to think I know they have seen me doing it. A couple years ago I began shaving my pubes and do it often when one of them is in the bathroom. Once a long time ago Jeanie asked me why I shaved my pubic hair but all I said is that it is more comfortable that way. Other than that our nudity aroung each other is never discussed. If Renee and her girls don't have a problem with it, I don't either.

It all started when I got very drunk at a party a year and a half ago. I ended up sleeping with Debbie who I have never had sexual interest in. 1, she isn't very pretty, 2, she is very demanding and 3, she has strange sexual desires. I spent the whole day after the party having sex with her and she is the one who started all the things we did to each other. She gave me oral sex several times and continually played with my penis and scrotum. I have never been with a girl who insited on penitrating my anus with her finger but must admit how fully satisfied I was when I went home. I did give her oral sex also and had intercouse several times but she seemed more intent on arousing and satisfying me. So much so she often embarrassed me by the way she would position me naked and intently look at my body. She seemed overly anxious to display me and spent much time touching my penis and scrotum. She often had my legs apart and rub her fingers and tongue along the bottom of my scrotum and actually lick my anus. As much as I thought it strange I did like how it aroused me. At one point she almost demanded that I let her spank me which I did let her do. I began going to her house once or twice a week just for the sex and was satisfied each time. The more I went there the more kinky she got and before I knew it I had no control and she was the dominant one in our sex play. It soon occurred to me that she got satisfaction by humiliating me. The spankings were the start but she soon was shaving my pubic hair all the way up the crack of my ass and without asking my permission began using a dildo to penatrate my anus. The first few times she used the dildo she inserted it while either jerking me off or giving me oral sex. I was so aroused by the time I realized what she was doing I said nothing about it. I never had felt anything like that before but did like the feeling of it. A month or two went by and I became submissive to anything she wanted of me. I continued having oral sex, anal and vaginal sex with her but she always concentrated on exploring and touching my body. I am by no means an adonis and my penis is barely normal size so I don't quite understand why she likes to have me displayed naked to her. It is embarrassing sometimes just by the ways she positions me and began using even a vibrator to penatrate my rectum aside from the dildo she also uses. About 5 months into this relationship she began insisting on tying me to the bed. She often blindfolded me and I never knew what was coming next. She would spank me, although never hurting me badly but I was always satisfied by the end of the night. Then one night she blindfolded me and began giving me oral sex and at the same time penatrating me with the vibrator. She always allowed me to cum in her mouth and she did the same this time. When she took the blindfold off me I could see her girlfriends Ilene and Cheryl standing there smiling at me. I knew Ilene was gay but never knew both Debbie and Cheryl were bisexual. They just joked around with me for a long time, Debbie refusing to untie me and a few times Cheryl smacked my penis. I realy was embarrassed just laying naked there but at the same time it was stimulating to me that the three girls liked seeing me naked. They did make a few remarks about my genitals and lack of pubic hair but it was all said in jest. From that night until now I have become sort of a submissive slave to the three of them. I have sex with Debbie and Cheryl but never with Ilene although I do see her naked each time she is there. I have watch the girls pleasure each other but when I come over their attention turns to me. I can't believe what I let these girls do to me and even though it is humiliating to admit it, I enjoy it. Debbie and Cheryl are the ones that satisfy me even though they have spanked me often and began fucking me with a strap-on dildo. Ilene never jerks me off or gives me oral sex. She likes spanking me and of the three, she hits me hardest. The one thing Ilene loves is to degrade me by wearing the strap on and penatrating me doggy style. She is so aggressive about it sometimes my anus is sore for a day or two. Debbie and Cheryl just laugh about it and I still don't know why I put up it the way Ilene fucks my ass. I quess because she is gay has a lot to do with it. She won't ever let me touch her body but has no problem with me seeing her naked. Cheryl is the best looking of them all but even she is not very attractive. I often think I am just using them but when I think about the things they do to me and how they try to embarrass me it is I who is being used and they know it. I go to Debbies house mostly twice a week. Cheryl is there most of the time and Ilene is there at least three or four times a month. As kinky as Debbie is, Cheryl also has her quirky things and undressing me and shaving my pubic hair is only two of them. Lots of times she has me kneel on the bed bent over while she jerks me off and sticks the dildo or vibrator in me. I don't know if it makes them feel more in control or if they just like seeing me in a vulnerable position. Many times one of them will jerk me off as another fucks me with the strap-on. I don't mind it as much when they are jerking me off or giving me oral sex and it never seems to hurt that way. Actually the only one that hurts me sometimes with the stap-on is Ilene. Overall it is a combination of punishment by the spankings and degradation by the way they abuse my anus. I put up with it because I am always content when they are finished with me. I have known Debbie for ten years and never thought I would ever be in any knd of relatiuonship with her. Let alone the two other girls.

It started over two years ago and I must admit that I am abused. I'm often violated, treated shamefully, and as much as they have put me through, I am at times totally humiliated. I knew Karen was a tough girl but nevertheless got involved with her. Shes 40 and I'm 31 but sex in the beginneg was good even though she was always the dominate one. She lives with Ellen and for a long time I suspected she was bisexual but know now she isn't. About two years ago I started to realize how kinky she was mainly because she began wanting to shave off my pubic hair all the time. I allowed her to do it and as months went by one night she let Ellen watch her do it and also maturbate me. I didn't know Ellen was at the door watching until after I had cum. It was embarrasing but I started to consider how arousing it was also. When Karen asked if it offended me I uttered, I don't think so. That night opened another world to me with kinky sex and lack of respect for me. I tolarate it now for my own gratification but suffer also to satisfy Karen and Ellen. The good part of it is that both of them masturbate and give me oral sex. I never have intercouse with Ellen but do perform oral sex on her often. I came to realize they enjoy tormenting me by not just humiliating me but started what could be conscrewed as torture. It began when they started tying me up at first only shaving my body hair and never listening to any complaints I had or objected to. Ellen was the first to insert a dildo in my rectum and gradually things got more intense. I still have sex with Karen alone a few times a week but since it all started at least once and often twice a week I am treated as a submissive, which I truly have become. After only about six month into this, Karen and Ellen have been taking me down to their basement and tying me to a large oak table. They also have what appears to be a saw horse only it has carpet tacked over the top and legs. When they tie me to that I'm draped over it with my arms and legs tied down and I am always naked. Without asking me if I had any objection, they not only began spanking me but also adorned a stap on dildo. Once I was securely tied down they took turns as one would play with my genitals as the other began fucking me in the ass. They just continued no matter what I said and once the pain of it subsided they would give me oral sex and often let me cum in their mouth. They just told me they like taking advantage of me and the fact is I am always satisfied when they are done with me. They do make me give them oral sex all the time and often sit on my face when I am tied to the table. Sometimes when on the table they tie my legs bent up and open and both either suck my dick or masturbate me when they insert a vibrator into my rectum. As bad as it may sound I do like the vibrator but still don't like it when they screw me with the strap on dildo. One night almost 11 months ago they had me tied over the saw horse. Ellen was wearing the strap on and began penitrating me as Karen was playing with my penis and scrotum. She did put ky or vasaline on it but it did hurt at first. Then I heard Karen say "come on down" and as I glanced towards the step saw two pairs of shoes and ankles only. I knew they were girls but had no idea who they were. All I knew was that they were behind me watching Ellen fuck me with the strap on. I couldn't believe Karen would let this happen and was so ashamed and humilited I started to shake but couldn't move. Ellen was more aggressive with the strap on and was penitrating me so deep I began begging her to stop and all I could hear is them laughing and joking around. My penis even went a little limp but then Karen began masturbating me until I finally did cum. The two girls were in front of me but I still couldn't see who they were and could only see up to about their waiste line. Ellen pulled the dildo out of me after I ejaculated and they let me stay that way and took turns spanking me, again in front of the two other girls. I was laying over the saw hourse for almost an hour by that time and was getting dizzy from it. I must have sounded like a idiot and kept asking them to untie me. Before they did the two strange girls went back up the stairs and left. I felt disgraced and was embarrased. I told Karen I wouldn't let them do this anymore. I showered as I usually do and when I came back down stairs I just told Karen and Ellen they should have asked me first if I wanted those girls to see me like that. I asked who they were and Ellen only told me she works with them at the bakery but never mentioned names. They both apoligized but said they thought I would like those girls to see me naked and assured me I didn't know them. Over the next week Karen kept calling me, asking if I was mad at her and Ellen. I said I was but began to realize deep down it was arousing to me that those girls saw me so exposed. The next time I spoke to Karen she got me to admit it but I did tell her that Ellen put the strap on diddo in me to deep and it hurt badly. I had sex with Karen at my apartment on Tuesday and she told me to go to her house Friday night. Ellen promised not to push the dildo all the way in me and I once again let them tie me down. They had my legs bent and tied and wide open. First they shaved me and after Ellen dried me off Karen started putting a blind fold over my eyes and said the girls are up stairs. I think because I couldn't see a thing, I was more at ease but became nervous and humilited as soon as I heard them coming down the steps. This time they all talked and the first thing Karen did was to play with my testicals and penis until I got hard. Then I think it was Ellen who turned the vibrator on but at first only touched my balls and penis with it for a long time. I could feel her put the vasaline on my anus and she began inserting it in me. I'm not sure who was doing what but the stimulation was so great I no longer felt embarrassed or felt like they were degrading me. I actually wanted to see who these other girls were. Ellen refused to take the blindfold off of me. Karen kept asking me if I was going to cum and she would stop jerking me off for a short time but Ellen kept moving the vibrator in and out of me. Ellen let me cum after awhile and before they untied me the girls I don't know left. It excited me because I didn't know and still don't know if any of them touch me or spank me. I don't even know if Karen and Ellen ever let them penitrate me either with the dildo or vibrator. When I ask about it they never tell if these girls do anything to me. This has gone on since, two or three times a month. I keep asking who these girls are that come and watch me and perhaps participate, but Karen and Ellen won't tell me. Two weeks ago Ellen finally did tell me its not the same girls all the time and that there are nine that have watched what they do to me. I know when one or two of these other girls are coming over because Karen and Ellen never get undressed when they do and never give me oral sex either. They only shave me, masturbate me and use the dildo and vibrator on me. If they have me on the table I am always blindfolded when the other girls come down the basement. When they tie me over the saw horse I can see but can't bend my head up enough to see who they are. I can tell 3 of them are fat girls just by the size of their ankles. They do talk when here but I don't recognize any of their voices and Karen and Ellen have promised me they are girls I don't know. I have asked about their ages but all Karen and Ellen tell me is most in their 30's and 40's, two 20's and one 50's. When all that is going on I am no longer humiliated by it. The crazy thing is when I think about it at work or when alone, I am horrified and feel shame for submitting to it. I can't imagine what these women think of me and must asume I am a complete pervert. I know Karen knows a few of them but I think most of them work with Ellen. Its a large name brand baking company that has hundreds of employees. I know I am a submissive asshole but it gets me so aroused I keep letting them do it.

I read stories and see things on tv about people being abused. Sometimes child abuse, spouse abuse or just a teacher or adult abusing a kid. Scandals about religious figures abusing people in their churches or other stories of pedophiles. My situation is more of letting myself be abused out of fear and a long drawn out manipulation by a two women who are not even blood relatives. My mother died of a drug overdose when I was 5 and somehow Helen and Brenda became my legal guardians with the approval of my grandmother. We live in a semi-rural area and are only 4 miles from town where I went to school. Helen and Brenda are not related to each other but own a small business together. Many people think they are gay but both have dated men many times over the years. The abuse of me began without me ever realizing it. I was born with a clubbed foot but am able to walk without any assistance. I'll be 20 next April and although I know how they take advantage of me it has become a sexual turn on for me. They have known this for a long time and continue to use me and treat me like a servant. As far back as I can remember is when they began spanking me but it was Brenda who always forced me to undress first. I was never permitted to lock either my bedroom or the bathroom door and many times during a week was denied being able to wear clothes. I saw them naked often but forced to be naked around them for hours and many times for a full day always saying it was punishment. It seemed like everytime one of them spanked me they also would make me stay naked the rest of the day or evening. I was naked so often as a youngster in front of them I don't remember if I was ever embarrassed by it since I was so young when it started. Some of the beatings I received were cruel and Brenda was the one who always made me plead for forgiveness. Helen was the one to make up my chore list and when she spanked me often smacked or took hold of my penis or squeezed my scrotum just to inflick more pain. I was petrified of both of them and to a degree still am today. As I reached puberty nothing changed, the whippings continued and my genitals were abused by them. They use their hands but also use one of Helen's skinny, red leather belts. I was always in to much pain to react sexually with the things they did to me. I was 13 the first time they saw me with an erection. I don't know what I did but Brenda made me undress and bend over to spank me. By this time I didn't cry very often unless they beat me badly. She smacked my penis a few times with the belt and all the sudden I was hard. I was standing naked in front of them which didn't embarrass me at all but the fact that I did have a hard on was humiliating for me, why I don't know. Helen and Brenda first critized me, then Helen asked me if I masturbated. I said no at first but after what became an interiagation, I admitted that I did. That day was the first time they made me masturbate in front of them. I still saw them naked once in awhile but they never were when I was and never when they beat me or made me jerk off. Helen is built well compared to Brenda, who is very tall and heavy. Both are in their late 40's now and Helen will be 50 in November. They began giving me an option of either getting a spanking or going without clothes for that day or for a few hours. It was always because of something I did which is most of the time made up by them or something as stupid as not doing the dishes the right way. Even though they both date men I know they have sex together, most of the time in Helens room when I can hear them. Since my early teen years they continued now to spank me and force me to masturbate afterwards. By the time I was 16 is when they began doing things to humiliate me at first making me shave off pubic hair. After only a few times Brenda began doing it and it was impossible for me not to get an erection. Every time I get an erection and everytime they make me masturbate and sometimes spank me afterwards for doing it. I have never told anyone about this and for the last 4 or 5 years have began to enjoy it. Helen and Brenda have had me admit to it many times and I now welcome the abuse they inflick on me. Two or three times a week I am ordered to get undressed and I willingly comply. They never tell me so but I know they like seeing me naked. I'm 5'6' and built fairly well but my penis is only a normal size. I know they like spanking me and even though sometimes they over do it I never complain about it fearing they will hurt me worse. Brenda still makes me plead leniency and forgiveness but still sometimes hits me so hard I still cry from the pain, but not as often as when I was younger. A year or so ago was the first time they abuse my rectum when Helen was shaving me. She always shaves my pubic hair completely, even shaving the hair around and near my anus. Although she and Brenda had often touched my anus, Helen forced a dildo in me which I didn't and don't like, but still put up with her doing that to me. I have never had sex with a girl and don't have to many friends I can even confide in. Helen and Brenda do touch my penis and testicals all the time when they spank or shave me, but they never masturbate me. They always make me jerk off myself, sometimes making me lay down or bend over as I do just to try and humiliate me. This I don't mind them doing and am no longer intimadated by anything they do or make me do. They often come in the bathroom as I shower and for some strange reason like to watch me pee. Years ago it bothered me when they watched but no longer does it now. The main fear I have of them now is how hard they will spank me, especially with the red belt. They don't treat me much better than they did many years ago and still order me around like a little kid. They are abusing and taking advantage of me but it became arousing to me a long time ago. They don't go out of their way to have me see them naked but neither one of them ever tries to cover up. Brenda will go through the hall naked and sometimes her door will be open when I see her. Helen has her bedroom door open a lot and I do see her naked more often and sometimes she talks to me when she is naked in the hallway. When ever they make me undress to spank me or make me go around naked they are always dressed or at least in night clothes. As much as it has turned into a sexual thing for me I'm not sure what kind of amusement or satisfaction they get from doing all these things to me. I know they have no desire to have sex with me but obviously like seeing me naked and punishing me. Even though they touch my genitals they have never masturbated me which I would like for them to do. I think they are under the impression that I am embarrassed or humiliated with the way they treat me and I think they are convinced I am sometimes. The only things I still dislike is when one of them spanks me to hard and I never like it when they insert the dildo in my rectum. Helen likes doing that to me more so than Brenda and I'm sure by now she does it knowing full well how I hate it. It don't really hurt that much but I just don't like how it feels, especially when she keeps pulling it in and out of me. She keeps asking me how it feels and telling me I don't like it and knows I don't. Helen dates a guy on a regular basis but I know for sure that she and Brenda have sex a couple times a week. I only work at their store two or three days a week but I clean the whole house and do all the laundry every week. They are good to me if I need money or clothes but many times they tell me I am not allowed out. Six months ago I wanted to go to a movie one night and Brenda said I had to stay home. I went anyway and when I got home the two of them made me strip naked and beat me with the red belt until I was in tears. I'm 19 but they still control me and now I always ask if I can go out. I think about it and know how they dictate almost everything I do but so far just go along with everything. I know I must sound like a complete idiot but I don't have anywhere to go and no job experience. I don't know what I want to do or want to be someday and just let Helen and Brenda continue to dominate my life. I have two friends I see often and both have met Helen and Brenda a few times. They think Helen is my mother and I just let them believe that. My friends know I'm not allowed out sometimes but have no knowlege of what goes on or how Helen and Brenda treat me. I could never tell them everything and now make up excuses instead of admitting I am not allowed out.