I (40f) had sex with my son (19m). I don’t regret it now as long as my son won’t in the future (it seems like he won’t)

My son and I did the deed recently, I have never been married. I had my son at an extremely young age. His father wasn’t around for anything. I feel horrible for him. He knows the father wasn’t even there for his birth. He is an only child. Which is good in some ways and bad in others. We are at least financially stable in a world that’s becoming increasingly expensive…that’s a good thing.

I am 40 years old, very white almost pale, I got double D’s, really no butt (or at least it’s medium at best but still on the smaller side) and I got a beautiful face according to my son. His friends all sort of hit on me but in a way that they won’t offend my son. I,e hugs last way to long, they stare at me kind of weirdly. And make a lot of compliments lol It’s pretty obvious… oh and I’m 5’4 tall..

One night when it was just him and I he brought up how attractive I was. He had taken me to the beach earlier and I think that sparked him to push things. He opened up to me on his depression, the fact that his girlfriend leaving him a year or so ago hurt him. He started rubbing my legs and told me “I’m the most attractive person he knows and he would like to kiss me”. I felt a taken back by this but he went for it. I too went got into it and he picked me up and carried me to my room (i have a nice queen bed he still only has a full size). Well we made love, I didn’t hold back. I told him mid way through I can tell he’s had all these pent up hormones.

You see incest has never been wrong in my eyes. I don’t believe in the cultural norm about most things. Not to mention my son is very lean and attractive. We didn’t go sleep till almost 4 am that night. We laid there talking then he went to his room.

I don’t regret it and I know right now he enjoyed it and doesn’t either. That was part of our discussion. It was beneficial and if anything helped our bond. He said “that was amazing and the best experience he’s ever had sexually”.

I don’t think we’ll do it again. I can’t risk anyone finding out either since we’ll it’s VERY illegal… but it does feel good talking about it on here.

I’m not gonna give out to many details but I will say since he has made me confident about legs now. That is what turns my son on so much about me other than my face. He said and I quote “I’m a legs man and you have the most attractive soft legs”. Lol he was very into those much more than my breast. This was actually his first time sucking on my boobs since he has only been been bottle fed.

Some of the things he said I think were a little to far during intercourse but I understand he was horny… like “your p**sy is mine“. When the reality is it’s mine and I didn’t have to agree to having sex. I helped him out and his confidence though and went with it “yes honey it’s yours, it’s yours! Not to mention it felt so freaking good.

I haven’t been laid in forever so I borderline screaming when he got into it…. It’s been so long since I’m working alot I don’t have time and none of my friends have introduced me to anyone.