so when I was 8 cps took me away for stuff that are not relevant. anyways, in my 2nd foster home, my foster dad was nice but also quiet and we weren't really close at first. that was, until my foster mom would start to go out more and I needed help with my streches and dances for cheer ( I was 9-10 in 4th & 5th grade )

he would help me stretch then slowly move his hands up my thigh to feel me through my shorts. I'd stop things from escalating, but he only continued.

it would be late in the afternoon when he would come into my room when no one else was home that he would sit on my bed, take off my covers and try to feel me up. When I would resist, he would 'play fight' and use it as an excuse to pin me down and and rub me through my clothes. Then he'd feel my breasts and tell me how Ive grown since moving into their house.

one day, after school, I walk into my room and see my foster parents' room door open and when I look inside, there he is, fully naked. I couldn't help but look at his large cock and we made eye contact before I scurried to help make dinner. but from then on, everyday after school, he'd leave the door open for me to see him fully naked, with his long, thick, hard cock out. It always made me feel butterflies, and I secretly always looked on purpose.

one day, no one was home and he was left to take care of a family members baby. I went into his room and sat on the bed after ge invited me and that's when he started to slowly put his hand inside my pants. He kept the conversation going like normal as he slowly rubbed my wet clit. He began to pull down his pants, but just then, the baby woke up crying and I ran off.

one day I had to go in for surgery in my mouth and when speaking to the doctors, he asked if he could feel the inside of my pants mid surgery to make sure I didn't wet myself. the next day, when we were alone, he told me how I was starting to slowly grow hair down there and how my holes were small but moist.

one day, it was dark out and I was watching TV when he sits next to me. he starts tickling me out of nowhere starts to pull the zipper of my onesie down as he begins to roughly kiss me. he makes his way down to my neck and it feels really, REALLY good. I wrap my legs around him and try to get as much friction as possible and ge kisses my sweet spot more but when I let out a moan, he stops.

he goes to his room and I go to the bathroom and see I have a hickey. I pass by his room and see him jacking off.

I felt disgusting, but now I want nothing more than for a man to pin me down, rape me, use me as a cum dumpster liek the useless slut that I am. I'm addicted to porn, especially taboo and reading these sick stories. I masturbate almost every day getting off to these older men, and even women molesting and raping children. I'm 14 now and a virgin and all I want is an older daddy/mommy to use and spoil me. I know I'm sick but I can't help myself